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[Livejournal Entry] Faced with circumstances... (F-locked to RL friends) [ 25 Jan 2011 · 3:20pm ] 08-Aug-2009; 1:13pm This is a weird time for me. Not only are demons about to come back, apparently, because some people just do not know when to stop, but also Alanna is missing and nobody seems to be able to find her since the full moon. I'm so worried. It makes me feel useless; like I can't do anything about either situation except being scared and worried to death. On the other hand, I'm not so sure I'm literally that useless. I've been thinking about this for a while, and I think it's about time I do something about it. The only thing I can try. I'm going to study magic. White magic. From what I've been reading, it can help protect people, so maybe I can help everyone a little bit. I'm not going to pretend I'm going to make a difference, but I really can't just stand here. And maybe there's a way to look for Alanna too, if she doesn't come back soon. I'm going to try. Wish me luck. 2 comments reply edit

Text to Kiley [ 15 Jan 2011 · 7:13pm ] 1:34pm Did you see the news? I am worried sick! :( I hadn't heard from Alanna in days but I never thought she was missing... 1 comments reply edit

[Livejournal Entry] Oh. My. God [ 10 Nov 2010 · 2:10pm ] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | Christopher Beck - Close your eyes (Buffy/Angel love theme) ] 02-Aug-2009; 1pm Oh my God. So, my life seems to have taken a turn for the mysterious lately. First were the flowers - though I guess a lot of other people got them, which saddens me, I liked to have thought it was only for me. But this time around, I don't think it could possibly have been the same gift for everyone. Maybe it isn't even related. Maybe someone out there does love me. I mean, it's not like you give someone a golden claddagh ring just like that! A. CLADDAGH. RING. You might recognize the gesture from somewhere, I sure did. The note said "For the heart you hold", and the ring is beautiful. Beautiful. I can't explain. I also got a dozen red roses which now ornate my living room, but the ring is what gets me. I am wearing it right now and I don't care if it looks silly, I feel hopeful when I look at it. Maybe there is an Angel to my Buffy out there somewhere, and maybe he is the one doing these things. I just hope he reveals himself soon. If you ask if I can explain why everyone got the same flowers, I'll tell you I can't. But does it really matter when I felt the way I felt when I opened the velvet box and saw the ring and the message to go with it? I don't feel this way often. Today I feel happy, hopeful, and curious. It's way better than the 'meh' I feel usually. R. 2 comments reply edit

[Livejournal Entry] Twenty five [ 02 Oct 2010 · 12:55am ] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | none ] 28-JUL-2009 11:10am So today is my birthday. Happy birthday to me! I told my mom I didn't want any family shenanigans, with a bit of luck she'll comply and I won't have my home invaded by her, dad, aunts and uncles and cousins whom I don't really have anything in common with. Today's celebrations will consist of birthday cake, DVDs, and cooking for myself - although you would think I'd go out, wouldn't you? Maybe I'll go to the Owl's Nest, it has amazing food and I met the owner's son the other day, he is really nice. No, it's nothing like that, he's genuinely nice and recently broke up with his girlfriend, so I thought I'd cheer him up with company. I don't know, loneliness makes me impulsive, I guess. I don't have a lot (or really any) friends around me, as you know. Which brings me to the weirdest thing. I got a bouquet of red roses, today. There were other flowers, too, but the roses were larger in number and prominence. It was left on my doorstep, and I did not step on them out of sheer luck this morning when I went out to purchase the aforementioned cake (it is a fairly large cake, nobody needs to know I'm probably eating it all by myself over the course of this week). Anyway. The bouquet had a card which was addressed to me, so there is no mistake there; however, it is not signed, and it had the simple message 'Smile. Somebody out there loves you.' I am at a loss. It's my birthday, so it might be a little birthday surprise, but a) It doesn't say happy birthday anywhere on the card, and b) Who would send me roses and not sign the damn card? Still. It put a huge smile on my face and I must say I really needed it. I guess it did what it was supposed to do; cheered me up and made me smile, even though I am really confused. (and part of me - you know, the part of me who fantasizes - wishes it was from Grayson even though I know it isn't, he is not the type to do that, much less for me) All in all, this is shaping up to be a fine birthday! R. 0 comments reply edit

[Livejournal Entry] Sadface [ 20 Aug 2010 · 1:36am ] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Amie Mann - Save me ] 24-JUL-2009 1:05PM All good things these days...Not. Last night at work I made a fool of myself in front of my boss, and some tool managed to make things exponentially worse by causing me to pour a whole tray of colourful tall glass cocktails all over my t-shirt. I was wet, I was sticky, and I smelled of sickly sweet alcohol. Of course my boss was a dream, as usual, and went out of his way to help me out, got me towels and everything. Before that, when I was acting like an idiot (because he still makes me nervous, I don't know what to do, I become this completely useless blob when he's around - less than ideal!), he asked if I was okay, if something was going on, and said he worried. I'm not an idiot - mostly, I know he probably will never see me like I see him, but that felt nice to hear. I know you're probably tired of hearing about him by now, but I swear he's dreamy. Always sharply dressed, too. And he looks like he could break someone in half but would rather not - what's not to like?! And no, that he's a vampire does not do anything to make me like him less. If anything, it's the opposite. Which brings me to this curfew thing, and all these crimes. Sure I am scared, but you know what? It hurts me almost as much as it must hurt the non-criminal vampires: the things anti-supernatural rights people are saying in the media right now. Generalizing, just because a group of them is really very dangerous, is equally as dangerous, the way I see it. I know vampires, I work with and under vampires on a nightly (ha!) basis, and I am living proof that some of them wouldn't even hurt a fly. Nobody's made a pass at me or my blood yet, either. Except for one or two customers, but that's promptly taken care of. I really don't understand how fear can cripple and blind people so much, that they can't see the very basics of life and the world we live in: In every race, every type, there are good, and bad. And ones shouldn't have to pay for the mistakes of the others. <3 R. 0 comments reply edit

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